Too Freaking Old

Trigger for eating disorders.

Okay, feeling odd. Some summer camp person tried to friend me on Facebook thinking I might be interested. Didn’t care to check my profile, just my friends list which is full of participants. Again, something I’m too old for. It’s not like I’d fit into any summer camp – we went to one once in 2000 and were horribly outcasted -, but argh. I want our body to be a teen again. Like be able to do teen things without getting strange looks. I wish we could make friends back when the body was a teen. Besides, I want all that freaking body fat to go away. I keep wanting to have our weight from when we’re a teen back. I know I need to lose a freaking amount of fat for that, but well. The camp was for eating disordered people. Heck we don’t even have a real eating disorder. The thought of this makes me want to purge.

Agnes